Where do I find peace? I often ask myself those questions. Peace may not come in large doses but learning to cherish and hold onto the times when it appears is like sanity-in-a-jar. It’s the quiet moments when riding in a car and everyone is laughing at something said, heard, or did. It’s in the moments when your child says, “Mom, I have to tell you something” or “Mom, this medicine doesn’t feel so good.” Those are moments when they are not fighting you but coming for the help they often cannot ask for. Peace comes when you finally convinced them to try something they said they would hate and you actual see them having a good time. Peace is in the days you did not argue, fuss or fight with them. It’s in the question of “What did you tell me to do?” because they are being compliant for a change. Peace is in the time when they have finally fallen asleep and everything is quiet.
Sometimes, we have to chase after peace and give it to ourselves in the form of an afternoon of window shopping, hanging out with friends, or taking a brief vacation. Our children constantly need our attention but if we fail to attend to ourselves, we fail to give them what they need. Having patience comes out of those quiet, sometimes stolen moments of peace. Embrace those moments. Chase those moments. You will find the love for not only yourself but for those whose illnesses often makes you wonder where the love has gone. Peace, it’s everywhere, it we look for it.